Break

I want to go on an adventure soooo bad. I want to be in a different country, or a different state even. No parents please, that takes the excitement out of everything. I want to meet people that I'll probably never see again. I hate living so inside of my comfort zone constantly, it's definitely nice to have but I'm bored.

I used to like cold weather, now I don't know. I feel like it keeps me in so much. Maybe if I had a jacket I'd go out more, but then I know there's no where to go. I don't have all that much money...always and I'm sick of the same thing all the time. I can only take this for so much longer, when summer comes I am making things change.

I want to read The Catcher in the Rye, I think I'm gonna go buy it today. Ugh but so little money. Whatever, I really need to start cutting back on cigarettes anyway.

I never want to go to college.

"I couldn't wait til I got home to pass the time in my room alone .. "

Fatlip

Sports all day for the past two days, if I keep this up I'm going to be completely covered in bruises by the end of the week. I like it though, baseball and soccer and basketball.

It's hot down here. I wish I had some money. I need cigerettes, I need to smoke, gah. I'm gonna rob my mom when I get a chance.
I miss Tom<3

It's been a while

I'm a little ticked off right now.
REASONS:
The new cleaning lady is coming today and I have to talk to her and direct her, and she hardly speaks english. AGH.
My mom is a selfish food shopper and I hate this organic shit.
Actualllly, I don't mind organic shit, I just hate this organic shit.

Last night I threw up again. I think I have to go back to only drinking sparks, I can't handle drinking beer or liquor and smoking obviously. Its cause I don't know my perfect mixture. Drinking and smoking has a very fine line, I cross it way too often. But this time I contained my puke to the bathroom and nobody knew, wo0p.

I dropped an entire 40 today in my kitchen. Kabloom beer and ugly brown glass everywhere. Good thing this new cleaning lady is coming, gross sticky floor.