I stayed in the dungeon all weekend with my best friend smoking pot, cause nothing else felt right. I passed up 2 parties and I haven't been drunk all week. I just figured that the usual drunken ridiculousness and mistakes aren't as funny or acceptable if your crying about something real at the end of it all.

So much for spring break, there's always next week.

Moment

I had so many moments today it's insane. And it's only 2 oclock.

First of all I think it's crazy how much music can do for a person. I'm having a fucking terrible time right now with things going on and I'm appreciating so many songs in a new way. Pints of Guiness Make You Strong gave me od chills in the parking lot on my ten minute break today.

And my epiphany.

I had a serious epiphany today. I'm so done being a bitch. (To people I care about mostly)

I can't elaborate right now, I'm on a break again...

I only write in this thing when I'm angry...

I noticed.

I reallllly didn't want to sit home or smoke or do the fucking usual because
A) that's all I've done this entire waste of a fucking vacation
B) I really want to get drunk
C) I love boys
D) I'm sick of being sad

but no. I'm sure I'll wind up doing exactly the same shit, as always.
Great, I just knocked both of my fucking contacts out at the exact same time.

I think this is one of the worst moods I've been in in a longgg time, I would say it couldn't get any worse but it probably willl..

Murph

:(

I haven't

had this little hope in humanity in a long time. How can one night of shit ruin everything, for atleast tonight.


I have no words, actually.

Cable Car

Jeeeeez. I don't have a boyfriend for many good reasons, so why would I want this?

This always fucking happens to me, seriously. I'm not a fan.

All the convenient and nice parts I don't mind, but when it starts to get like this I'm done with it. I'm not manipulative, I don't enjoy it (that much) but I don't want to deal with physcos, basically.

Leave your confessions home please.


Why???????

!

I just wasted 6 hours of my life because some people are fucking inconsiderate bitches.


I'm really fucking sick of being bored and having no friends and I still can't fucking help that I don't like anyone to be their friends. I don't even like the friends I have enough to be their friend, I just have no other options.

I can honestly think of 1 person in the world at this moment that I like.

(It might be me)

I hate everyone and everything.