I am a drunken messsss. I've blacked out at least once a weekend for the past month or two. I don't try to get that drunk but it just happens. It's annoying. I hate waking up wondering who of my friends/family hate me and why, it's a shitty feeling.

I also hate hearing/remembering ridiculous, unnecessary and disgusting stories about myself.

I'm going to sum up the last 3 weekends real quick.

Friday, Bomb the Music Industry - I remember almost nothing. A lot of drunk hookups, a lot. Apparently I made out with the whole room. Too many. Number of people who hated me after that night - 3. Woops.

Saturday, Show at Don Hills - Drunk mess again. Hooked up with a physco boy all night and few extra people here and there. I wound up punching the guy I hooked up with in the face at the end of the night resulting in him punching a whole in the wall of their studio. Also I started the night in the Village and some how ended up in Breezy Point with a bunch of people I don't know.
Number of people who hated me after that night - unkown (probably a lot)

Last night, Just Surrender at Highline Ballroom - Made a lot of fucking mistakes. Big ones. Caught 2 songs. Made out with a lot of strangers.

I have to stop this. Either I need to learn how to control myself when I drink or I just can't anymore. My mom is pissed at me, I hope she still lets me go to NJ for Bamoozle for the weekend :/.

Next weekend WILL be better. And I WILL remember EVERYTHING.

THINK POSTIVE.


(Chicken cutlets, cream corn, mashed potatoes stuffing and cabbage tonight<3 Thank you for that)