"There is no anger, just growing exhaustion and disgust, no longer a difference between. A cynicism has been writing it self into my skin and I am sick to death of it."
Home now, so nice to have my own key board.
I was thinking today about how I don't talk to 90% of the people I used to know. I don't know if that should make me sad but it doesn't at all, actually I'm so relieved. Looking at most of the people in the neighborhood now makes me sick, I'm so happy that I didn't let myself get (or stay) like that. I do miss some of my friends, but mostly my friends from grammer school. I really hate living here, I feel like theres almost no one to meet, I either know everyone or I'd rather not know them. I can't even begin to describe some of the idiots that live here. One big, fat bitch that I think of inparticular when I think of the assholes in this neighborhood turns my stomach the most. I swear she has been doing the same shit, which would be making this world a little bit worse then it is, since I was 12 (and I dont see her stoping any time soon). Some people I can't even believe I was ever friends with, I can't help hating some of them for no better reason then their exsistence. One year of college here and that's it. Wow, and I'm deffinitly not looking forward to that college either, some of the biggest losers that I've ever known go there. So exciting to know that there is not going to be much change for atleast another year.
"Torch ourselves in effigy."
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