The Other Night

I had the craziest dream, about Quentin Tarintino.
What happened was, I was watching the deleted scenes on my Pulp Fiction DVD and Quentin was doing the commentary before. I happened to fall asleep while watching and I dreamt this...
My sister dropped me off at his house, where I was going to be learning something (about directing I assume) When I got there we sat at the computer together and he made me sit on his lap and he sexually harassed me as I wrote him a review on Journey, the band. I think I know understand why little boys don't tell on the preists that give it to them and what not, cause I didn't want it but I just let Quentin do his thing. Then more kids came and Raquel (who was in about 2 minutes of Pulp Fiction) and she was Quentins girlfriend. Some little boy tried to make me jealous by telling them they were doing it in his room right now, woop. Then my mom and sister picked me up but I forgot my cell phone and we got lost in his strange apartment complex. It was all very wierd.

The end.

HAHA

People. I think I'm completely impossible to insult. I am completely aware of everything bad thing about me, my life, and so on. And apperance, that is the worst. I haven't gotten one of those in a while, which might be a sign that the small portion of the world I associate with is maturing slightly. How important are looks really? They seem to be, and I guess they do play some what of a factor in life, but anyone with any substance can get past looks. I can't believe the things that people forget sometimes, it makes me think that you can forget anything.

I'm a good person, too good.

"Thats why guys don't like you"
Hahaha, I can think of a thousand reasons why I am still single, but because I said I don't understand how your girlfriend can stand you, is deffinitly not one of them.

Baby, I Won't Impress You No Matter What

I make myself sick, and so does the world.

I know I'm not supposed to be this way anymore. Happy happy Rachael. I think tonight is a free pass. Would you like me if I stayed forever young? Blaaaa, I'm fucked up. I wish I could just sit on the couch and watch Pulp Fiction forever, or One Flew Over The Cuckoos Nest, I don't want to have to think anymore.

Well that sucks, cause no one does, get used to staying out of touch.

AND

I said this to someone I havent talked to in a long time tonight, and I used to be very good friends with them a very long time ago....

i know we havent talked in a long time, and im almost postive you hate me, but ive been thinking and i just wanted to say merry christmas
& you can tell your girlfriend the same goes for her

and they didnt even answer, I put my heart out in Christmas spirit, I even lied for the sake of goodness because I didn't even mean the last part, and he couldn't even humor me with an answer, so fuck this world.

This world

is full of stupid people. It seems that the only person worth really caring about is your significant other. I don't have one of those, and maybe I never will, does that mean that I'm never going to be important enough for anyone? I can't decide but I think so, and parents? Parents...psh. Parents have their own stories. Siblings will most likely ruin that last hope for you, if your in my boat. I can't care though, I'll just let it all go. Something, even if it is a short conversation every two weeks, is better than nothing.

Murph made me cry tonight, and I didn't even talk to him. & Nothing, nothing made me cry. Nothing, nothing, nothing.

I'm gonna keep a postive attitude anyway, because of my epiphany.

You Know It Kills Me

I was thinking about it, and it's not my fault he sucked when I was sober.

Deja Friday

It feels like yesterday happened already. Went to school, late of course. Didn't go to community service. Fight with psycho man, rule and authority obsessed Dad. Smoked, slept, went home and got ready. Kamels. Kamel is ridiculous. So is his brother. I fell in love with his puppy. I like to not be touched sometimes, but no one seems to understand that. It was like the 3 of them that were there have never seen a girl before. I felt like I was being hunted. It was fun though, most of it. The cab driver was deffinitly a killer. I'm sick of the attitudes on every fucking person in that cab company.

Fuckkkkk authority and rules.

Stupid

There is absolutely nothing at all wrong with smoking pot. Yes, anything in excess is bad, that's true. On the contrary, that also goes for other things. Some other examples of things in excess that are bad : drinking, eating, sleeping, not going to school, even dying your hair and many other things. Why these things are ok to abuse and why pot is not ok to smoke a healthy amount, is beyond me.
Things like pot call for very few things, something to smoke out of, some where to smoke and self control. It's as simple as that.

And just because I like to smoke, it doesn't make me a "pot head" or a bad person!

No Gooood

I hate coldssss. I woke up so sick, dreaming about bottles of water in my bed. I was actually on my way to school and on time when Nicole called and and I decided that I felt too much like shit not to go to her house and sleep for 3 hours. Last night was ridiculous, didn't plan on getting too fucked up since it was Sunday. Went to the forrest with Nicole and Losenger, drank and heard funny shit stories. Fladam picked me up and we smoked in the van, then I went home and talked to my mom and sister about vagina hair in the 60's, 70's, 80's and 90's for like 2 hours. People were so crazy to really style their vagina hair, and still are if they still do. I had a dream about Tom today during my nap, agh such a tease. I don't want to go to workkkkk, I'm not going to school again tommorrow, I don't care if I fail health for it. I need to register for SATs, bleh.

Ocupado

Goinggggggggggg too the forest, wooooop.

My froat hurtsssssss.

Untitled 3 Million

I miss this adorable man
And them^

I wish they would go on fucking tour againnnnnnnn. That's always the best thing to have to look foward too. I think I could see them 36826 million times and some how have the greatest time of my life everytime.

I don't care,

I don't care,

I don't care,

I don't care,

I don't care,

I DON'T CARE.

Just like he said. I think Jamie got pee on me, ewww.

Last Chance To Lose Your Keys

"It's boys like you that make me think
I'm better off home on a Saturday night..."

I miss my best friend. I like his new girlfriend, shes really nice and I'm happy for him but I miss him in more ways than one. I feel like hes been different the past 2 weeks, the 2 times that I've seen him. I hope this whole being so wrapped up in his girlfriend thing doesn't last long. I don't want them to break up, I just hope he learns to balance. I feel replaced, even though I was never anything like his girlfriend and most deffinitley never wanted to be, I had that opportunity many times. I don't know about this whole thing, but it seems to fit a pattern in my life lately.

I don't think I can handle a relationship. I don't know how I did it in the past, but I look at other peoples relationships and not all of them, but a lot of them seem to be so unbalanced. Some people act as if the only other person on the planet is their significant other. I don't want to make someone my entire life. There are people in normal relationships too, ofcourse. They seem to balance everything well and what not, but agh. I don't think I could even like anyone so much, so consistantly for very long.

My manager bought everyone at work pizza today. He's one of those people who act like they hate everyone, but then do something nice like that. My lungs are shot shot shot. I ran to my house and back to work, I live 2 blocks away, I'm still weezing and coughing. I'm disgusting. I smoke tooooo much. I smoke too much pot too. I hope my brain doesn't disapear.

Say It, Dont Spray It

I ate so much white pasta last night, ewwww. I feel nasty. Buddy wore my hat :).

Aghhhhihfdxgdhsapdj[oacdsofafhsaijhd.

People are ridiculous, faggets faggets faggets. If I see one more of these on aim ...

keep loven me the way you loven me,&ill neva leave your side. you gotta
chick thats riide or diee soo justt remembaa as much as fiight were both on the
same sidex3, i love you.

or....

Trynnaa livVe c0mfortableee,wannaa chiLL nD sm0kEe bluntTTss wiTTchuuu, g0o t0o
thaAa m0vviesss- cAn a niGGaa maAkee l0vVeee 2 y0UUU

I'm gonna throw up. How does anyone have the patience to type half in upper case half in lower case? And why would they ever want to? If a guy ever came to me and said "Can a nigga make love to you" I certainly would not say yes.

I have to eat my trader joes french toast with disgusting sugar free syrup. I can deal with a lot of healthy sugar free, low fat, low carb, no sugar added, diabetic, light shit, but this is not cutting it.

Now I must go look at bobs funny pictures?

You are wiiiiiierd and warped. Your not that great, I just want your sometimes curved Benis.

Agh

I'm hungry.

I didn't know people still played games. I thought you grew out of that shit. Is it enjoyable? I guess it is if you don't care, maybe that's the problem. I can't do that.

I want to watch Pulp Fiction. I don't know why I haven't bought it yet. Maybe cause I'm always fucking broke. How is it that my cousin gave me a hundred dollars (wooop!) on Thanksgiving and I got payed the day before and I have like 10 dollars today. I'm ridiculous.

And done.

Na Na Na Na

"So find the darkest place
and search under blankets for
me, smothering myself in this darkness"

I like Bayside, they write what I think.

I have to pee so bad right now, but I'm too horribly lazy to get up and walk 10 feet. I feel a little more like myself today, not a very good version of myself, but it's better then nothing. I'm over the last thing that I had to think about, that was quick. I hate having regrets, even more I hate thinking what could have been, because nothing ever happens the way you think it should.

I hate the way I am too, what is wrong with me? There has to be something. I'm 17 and I haven't impacted anyone in anyway, I have no meaning to anyone. I'm just another person, and so is the rest of the world, the difference is that most of the rest of the world is more then just a person to someone somewhere. So what's wrong here? It is obviously me, not everyone else can be the problem. I just want to know what it is.

I'm retarded too. On the rare occasion that I do attract someone, it eventually isn't enough. I don't know if it's because I start to get nervous and worry about what I'm doing and saying, or if it's because I just am not enough. When I'm high and I think about this I think I have no substance and that I'm immature. I try not to think about things like this when I'm stoned though, I don't want to ruin one of the only things that makes me feel good.

I want to do something. We always make lists, but I don't know what happens, I guess we just forget. Me and Nicole were supposed to do something the other day, it didn't work out though. We're going the forest Thursday, as high as we can possibly get. Yay.

Thanksgiving :/

Today is my favorite day ever and my brain feels like mush. I don't like it.
I did just make awesome stuffed mushrooms for my Nannys house though :) Agh, and Searching For a Former Clarity just came on my limewire, it's gona make me even sadder.

I'm just sick of my life and my bad luck.

People man...

I've been reading peoples blogs on myspace, people who like to write. I'm not trying to be a crazy critical and self righteous, but they suck. They all try so fucking hard its disgusting. Let me grab every interesting new vocabulary word and dark symbolic figure I can find and cram it into a paragraph and call it a piece of writing. That's all it is. The worst part is that people comment these posts telling them that it's incredible and they should write music and crap. I like to write too, but I'd never put anything of that nature on myspace or even this thing. I guess in that way I have to give them some credit.

So about the last two days, they sucked. Me and Nicole were going to see Tom's solo show last night, and I'm so mad. We go there and even though doors 'opened' at 7, we didnt get in til 8, so we stood in the cold for an hour. Then we waited by the stage for another hour and this other guy starts playing and there were drunk idiots screaming, spilling beer on us and trying to crowd surf. I can deal with that, but this was not that type of venue, your not supposed to do that its not set up for that. Then I get a text from a friend who was meeting me there saying Tom is going on til 1030. It was a school night and we were hungry, annoyed and had to pee and we don't even like Toms solo music really, just Tom. So we flipped a coin and it landed on heads, so we left. The rest of the night was bad too but not neccesary to write. To make the whole thing a thousand times worse, we find out today that he played so many Against Me! songs, like Tonight We Give It 35%, I love that song. And Burn, which he said he'd never play again. I am soooo mad. No more :/.

Tom<3

"Now I'm lying on the table
with everything you said
keep that in mind, the way
that I felt when the most I could
do was to just blame myself."

I want to be high so fucking bad right now, agh. Going to see Thomas Gabel tonight at the Knitting Factory, should be amazing ofcourse. To be honest I like Against Me!s music a lot better then Toms solo stuff, but I love Tom too much to miss anything he does. I decided that Adam Lazarra (Taking Back Sunday) is an awesome writer, and deffinitly relateable. I don't care how gay it sounds to say I like Taking Back Sunday, I do. I'd never torture myself and go to see them though, they play huge venues and there would be 7,489 crazed little bitches with their t-shirts and possibly signs, crying and freaking out and shit. Yea, I can't stomach that. So excited for tonight :).

Who Am I Kidding

I don't have much of a brain lately, just very scattered thoughts.

Wowowowowowow. I can't believe I lost my fuckkkkking ipod. I cannot afford a new ipod, and I can't take the bus and train every fucking day without it. And my black eye liner, again! There is a black hole in my house some where, eating all of my most important things. I'm just waiting for my cigerettes and phone to get sucked off my computer desk right now and vanish. I deffinitly have the worst luck ever.

Liquid Tylenol

I hate being sick, everything I do takes insane amounts of energy. I'm avoiding taking a shower right now cause I know I'm gona be exhausted after ha. So my senior thesis is due on wednesday and I don't even know what I have to do. That means I can spend my entire day off tuesday writing it, greatttt. Friday was the longest night of my life.

I need a new job, desperately. I wish I was a genius like Good Will Hunting.

I don't give a fuck who the president is. I hate this country anyway.

Little Shit

I'm really fucking sick of my father. I can't stand his whole fucking love of authority. If it's in control, it's right. And I can't stand how he tries to ruin everything for everyone. He can never just be happy for someone. If I get good grades, I could have done better. I want to go to college in Boston, it's never gonna happen. I had a really good time somewhere (for once), he can't even pretend to get it. My job very obviously fucked me over, but their still right. I'm so fucking sick of it. I need to grow up though, I'm overreacting. Maybe these things are important to me, he should be happy that fucking anything is important to me. I never try to do anything or set any goals for myself, and the one time I do it doesn't fucking make a difference, and at the fucking easiest thing. It makes me feel like shit and I don't why he can't just understand that and try in someway to make me feel better, rather then just trying to point out why I'm wrong.

Halloween

I just have to document while the memory is still fresh in my mind, how fucking horrible tonight was. Everyone starting drinking at my house at like 5, didn't leave til around 9. My best friend is an idiot and got too fucked up because i guess hes a huge light weight and couldn't even walk. Finally got on the train but then had to get off cause Nicoles boyfriend had too peepee lmao. FINALLLY got to BBKings at around 1030, the misfits were good but it was over in what felt like 5 minutes. Then we lost murph for a half hour and then stood outside the train for another half hour, but I'm not quite sure why. Finally we go down to catch the train and ofcourse someone doesnt have a metro card and follows me through, and oh yay we both get summonses. Fucken asshole cop, 100 dollars for jumping the turn style(?). What is that shit. Now I'm home after walking another 416183 miles. I feel like I'm gonna throw up all over the basement.

Fucked Up

I'm fucked up, listening to wheatus, and waiting to go to see the misfits. I want to leaveeeeeeeee.

FUCK

Encounter 2 with that stupid idian shit from walgreens. FUCK him. Now I deffinitly can't go in there again. There are worse things in the world then a fake i.d. I don't fucking get it, I never even i.d people at work for beer, and if I did I wouldn't give a shit if I really believed it was them or not. Those fucks tried to take it from me too. Get the fuck out of here, I want revenge, I want that little smelly fuck to burn. As if my day wasn't bad enough. Fuck fuck fuck fuck that's so annoying.

Gin and Juice

Right now my washing machine is beating the shit out of my favorite pants :(. Against Me! got in a bus accident, but their okay (THANKGOD). I'm procrastinating right now. I have a lot of health and government homework to make up. I don't want to go to work, as always. Nicole put her 2 weeks in. That sucks. I hate it there enough with her. Every work day is going to be horrible horrible torture. Nicole quitting means they have to make a new floor girl. I doubt their going to ask me since it's been almost 3 years and they still haven't. They obviously think I'm retarded, and their wrong. I am more capable then every idiot that works there, by far. It's bullshit, "I gave myself a bad reputation". I was 15 when I started working there, it's been 3 years - things change. I don't think I even want to be a floor girl, it just means more hours and that means more torture. I just want them to fucking ask me already, it's the principle.

Bullshit.

Wow. I'm appauled. I'm a victim of atempted swindling. I smoked with a kid from work and two other people the other night. We all smoked a dub, and as most of the world knows, this is 20 dollars worth. Divided by four, 5 dollars each, or so i thought. Now before smoking there was a big predicament because we thought only 3 people were smoking and I didn't have any money on me at the time all this crap. I just wanted to smoke, so I went to the kid who had the mary jane and I said something along the lines of "Whatever, I'll give you fucking 700 dollars when I get my check, let's just smoke". Now obviously, I was not serious about 700 dollars. How the fuck does he meet up with me now asking me for 10 dollars? Because your the dealer you don't have to pay? Not where I'm from. What a fucking ass wad. Not to mention I have lit him up numerous times in the past. And it's not so much about the extra 5 dollars, although money is tight, it's the principle.

Anywho, it has been ridiculously cold out. I love it. I don't love that I don't have a jacket yet, but when I get one I'll really love it. I just wish it would not be sunny for the whole winter, or the whole year. That'd be amazing. Maybe I should move to Alaska, 6 months of darkness, I think.

Sometimes the wit of others shocks and amazes me. Not that I think I'm incredibly witty and clever, I just don't think the rest of the world that I associate with is either. Maybe I'm too hard on the world. I'm going to try to be more accepting. I'm cynical and critical and kind of anti-social sometimes. That would explain why I feel the need to write in this blog and the only people that even read it are me and maybe Nicole, and shes already heard it all before.

Sell My Old Clothes..

It seems impossible that every single day can get worse, but it does somehow. I'm just sick to death of the repetitive bullshit. Wake up and hike in the freezing cold with no jacket to the bus, and from the bus to school, and it's only getting colder everyday. Then sit in school where I still fucking freeze in all of my classes. Then home from school, same thing, hike and freeze. Finally I get home, and either smoke and sleep or sleep and work. Then there are the little things on top of all the other bigger things that just make me insane. Today I come home and the only thing in the house to eat is cereal, but guess what? Theres no milk! Perfect. The smoke alarm is still beeping constantly because still no one has replaced the batteries. No heat yet. TV in the basement won't work. You can just never win.

Got my report card today though. I did pretty nice. 83 average. 88 92 70 80 85. Public school has done me good I suppose.

Unfortunately, work is now going to suck a fat one today and friday will suck all by itself, but shit happens. Would it really make that much of a difference if it didnt anyway?

A Little Nauseated

Fuck that indian man at walgreens. I go there pracitcally every day. Everyday since they opened I go to walgreens with my 19 i.d and get a pack of newports. Why, today, does the stupid fucken douche of an indian mother fucker have to verify that its my i.d? I guess since I dyed my hair, but whatever, I don't know her fucking adress because no one else really gives a shit if its me or not. I'm 17, its not like I'm a 10 year old walking in and asking for a pack. It's such bullshit, now I have to walk an extra block to the candy store to get cigarettes and their not open til 10.

I'm hungover and I don't want to go to work. I was such a mess last night. I was so fucking bored at FotAss's house. The last thing I want to do on a Saturday night is ruin my drunk and high watching some bullshit video game. Nicole slept half the night, so I spent most of the night in the bathroom entertaining myself or listening to my ipod.
I need new friends, not that those people are my friends. Nicole and Murph are my friends, everyone else are just people I know. I just need more friends.

Break

Just got out of work. I was a half hour late today, for no good reason at all. I went to sleep around 12, I didn't drink at all, or do anything to exert too much energy, what a waste of and extra 30 minutes sleeping. I've been trying to be good at work, maybe some day I'll eventually get "promoted", but its useless. One day of being late means I need another 3 months of being "good" to make up for it. They only see the bad things.

I was just reading Toms blog. He makes me so fucking jealous. That man could be talking about taking a shit and it would still sound perfect.

I've been feeling wierd lately, I'm so iritable. Everything makes me mad, everything annoys me. I'm always tired and I always have a headache. People try to make plans with me and I want to sit in the basement and do nothing and then I get pissed off that I have nothing to do. There is nothing to do though. I guess these are all just side effects of being miserable, or maybe the reason for being miserable. I can't decide.

Last night was fun though. Murph came over and me him and Nikki smoked on the porch. Then me and Murph walked to Atlas to see the movie. We got there half way through the coming attractions, which is a problem, apparently this is the most important part of going to the movies (according to murph). All was well until a group of like fifteen 12 year olds decided to be fucking retarded. They did not shutup. Running around, talking, lauging, yelled, climbing over seats, through the first 10 minutes of the movie. They eventually got kicked out. After they were gone everything was good. I was so stoned, it was great. There wasn't a lot of bullshit in between, just a lot of crazy zombie people eating everyone and some crazy fireman just slaughtering them. It was pretty funny too. Bla bla bla enough bullshit, me and Nicole are going to actually do something tonight, so I need to nap and shower and ect.

On a sad note, the closest Quiznos is closing :( thats my favorite high food.

The Roller

"Feels like you've already said so much, feels like you can never say enough."

I think I have chronic headaches. I just feel like I always have a headache, very annoying. Me and Murph are going to see Quarantine tonight, it'll probably suck, but I don't care as long as it scares the shit out of me. He wanted to see Max Payne. The name in itself is bad enough, but no, it's staring Mark Whalberg (or however you spell it). That man is such a bad actor, so bad that I feel no need to elaborate.
I am so shallow. Well, I don't even know if shallow is the word, extremely picky? It's hardly about looks, just every thing else. I just don't think that I should have to settle, I just might be single til I'm 75. I just want to find someone compatible in all aspects, and then I actually have to like them and be attracted to them, and ofcourse they have to actually like me. Too annoying. A clone of Tom Gabel would be nice, I'd 'settle' for that.

I'm So Burnt

"Even when locations change, the imbalance stays the same, and you just run out of cities, states and countries you can blame..."

Me and Nicole were just talking about how ugly vaginas are. They are so ugly. Dicks aren't that nice either, but their still better than a big ugly vagina.
I am so burnt, and we ate so much pizza and slept for like 4 hours, so disgusting. It sucks this sleep won't count for anything tonight cause now I'm never going to fall asleep. I want to start eating healthy, it's so fucking hard to when your high though haha. My brain is so shot right now....

Complete Disconnection

"There is no anger, just growing exhaustion and disgust, no longer a difference between. A cynicism has been writing it self into my skin and I am sick to death of it."

Home now, so nice to have my own key board.
I was thinking today about how I don't talk to 90% of the people I used to know. I don't know if that should make me sad but it doesn't at all, actually I'm so relieved. Looking at most of the people in the neighborhood now makes me sick, I'm so happy that I didn't let myself get (or stay) like that. I do miss some of my friends, but mostly my friends from grammer school. I really hate living here, I feel like theres almost no one to meet, I either know everyone or I'd rather not know them. I can't even begin to describe some of the idiots that live here. One big, fat bitch that I think of inparticular when I think of the assholes in this neighborhood turns my stomach the most. I swear she has been doing the same shit, which would be making this world a little bit worse then it is, since I was 12 (and I dont see her stoping any time soon). Some people I can't even believe I was ever friends with, I can't help hating some of them for no better reason then their exsistence. One year of college here and that's it. Wow, and I'm deffinitly not looking forward to that college either, some of the biggest losers that I've ever known go there. So exciting to know that there is not going to be much change for atleast another year.

"Torch ourselves in effigy."

I'm Starving

I don't know why I'm even attempting to type on Nicoles alien key board. It's so fucking hot today and "nice", I hate it. God, I'm so hungry. I give up I can't type like this.

Overcast

"So I fucked it up, I watched you go, I saw my hand not dialing the phone. All
I'm left to do is remember the dull room we sat in blue stream light watching
the strike of '59...."

I want to know who the fuck decided what a nice day is? I'd say a typical "nice day" for the average person is warm weather, sunny and not humid. In my opinion, a nice day is overcast, cold and windy. That's just the kind of weather I like, I wish everyday was like that. Todays kind of like that, but not cold enough. If I could I think I'd just stay here in the basement, close the door and shut off all the lights and watch Pulp Fiction or That 70's Show or something.

I really like Saves The Day. I think Chris is a really good writer and his lyrics really appeal to me. ^ Like that one. Jessie and My Whetstone has been my song lately. That's the song that when I walk to the bus in the morning goes on first on my ipod, and same when I get home on my limewire.

I have to re-dye my hair today, so annoying. It keeps washing out and I'm so sick of having this stupid looking fucking blonde hair. I want RED.

So I thought that the show we're going to see on November 20th was Against Me! I think I might be wrong though, my friend told me about it cause she wants to go, but me and Nicole got a flyer after leaving Webster Hall on Saturday that says its just Tom, a solo show. I'd absolutely go see that anyway, I didn't like the first song of his that I heard that much, but I've listen to some others and its actually pretty good. He also played one on Saturday that I liked, especially directly from his beautiful lips. It resembles Against Me!'s old shit more, and I like that. Hopefully it'll be his solo and an Against Me! set, that would deffinitly be ideal.

I hate my job.

I really hate my job, I should never ever work in customer service. People are so cheap and ridiculous, and some of them just try to start fights. It really makes me hate the human race more then I already do. Me and Nicole kept getting prank calls at work today, which is so odd since niether of us really talk to many people and they were obviously connected. Then theres that creepy guy that I randomly met on the street last night. Who just starts talking to someone out of nowhere? Granted, he was fucked up, but it's just not normal. I don't know why I gave him my number, but then on top of the strange way in which you got it, to call me 3 times in less then 24 hours? Honestly how desperate can a person be?

Mmmmm dunkin' donuts now.

Law & Order

I know I just wrote, but now I'm watching law and order while I'm doing the laundry and it's just so ridiculous some times. I like the show because I love anything to do with murder and rape and ect., but really, who makes a stick figure cartoon on the computer of the way they plan to murder their cousin?

1st

I just finished watching the latest episode of californication. I like that show, it's funny and entertaining but it kind of makes me mad somtimes. Where in the world is everyone you know so witty? Even the 12 or 13 year olds are clever and smart. It just seems so unrealistic, maybe thats why its a TV show? Not only are they witty, but they have a general good taste in music and clothing (as little as that might matter) and basically they seem like the type of people that I like. I'm jealous of this show.

On another note, I really don't want to do the laundry or my homework or get dressed for work, this is such a waste of a day off. I found it so hard to wake up this morning.

A little on Tom.
So me, Nicole my sister and Matt went to the Against Me! show on saturday night. It was amazing ofcourse, Nicole and I were right there, about 3 feet away from Tom. I held his hand and touched his sweaty, naked chest. It was insane. Their just really good preformers, at the end of the show there was about 30 people on the stage with them. We didnt go up but we should've, I just wasn't sure it was over and didnt wana get pushed to the back. I'm going to see them again in November and I'd like to see Tom solo too. Heather Gabel is such a lucky bitch.

I have to actually do things now.